December 2010
1 post
im alive… but just barely.
September 2010
1 post
D*con
i just want to go back to sleep… but alas i must shower, put on a happy face and go deal with it.. yay /sigh.
August 2010
3 posts
dreadfully beautiful....
I started a fire themed fall last night, hopefully gonna get it finished soon… just wanted to give everyone a heads up befor i started posting tons of pictures of dreads soon… not being on the road anymore has given me the break to start doing what i actuallly enjoy doing again… etsy site to come in the near future along with a full on website of products… hopefully be...
what dreams may come...
taking a little time befor i got to pack to head back out to PA. My head is currently spinning due to some dreams i had last night… not bad dreams like normal.. actually the exact opposite… Dreams that make me really feel like anything is possible. Dreams that kinda give me the little push i need right now to get thru the next few weeks and follow thru with what i have been...
still alive...
i’ve been doing alot of contemplating recently, putting a lot of thought into what exactlly i want to be doing not only to make myself happy but to make D happy.
Frankly, aspects of the road are killing us. Never being home, Me never getting to see family, feeling like i’ve lost contact with *everyone*, never knowing what kinda income we’re going to have from one show to...
July 2010
3 posts
such is life...
Heading to PA this morning sometime for a biker rally this weekend, then its off to Baltimore for Otakon… I long for a few weeks off but need the money. I really need to get my head clear and do some serious brain storming on products and how to get shit done for my own business… i’m tired of having to work someone elses schedual and 9 times out of 10 having to fix one of her...
-=grumble=-
time off went by way too fast. I truely feel like I lost a day or two of relaxation in there somewhere and yet accomplished fuck all.
We head out here in the next few hours to start the trek back up to PA to shuffle stock and load trucks. Then its off to Hampton, Va for the black beard festival and then after that perhaps a quick swing home then its off to Alverado, Tx for a 21+ biker gig.
...
May 2010
1 post
April 2010
2 posts
Scottish Weather and motorcycles...
Closing weekend of North Carolina. Should be heading out here with in the next few hours to head to the lovely Wake Forest for closing weekend of NC. Albannach is supposed to be preforming and hopefully bringing a large crowd with them… unfortunatly, weather predictions also show that they are bringing with them a bit of scottish weather as well. Hopefully the dampness doesnt keep too...
sorry for the neglect....
Photo from TattooFest in Tampa via Phone.
I know I havent posted in a while… I figured whilst I await the dryer to do its thing I would take a little time and inform the few that follow me here whats been going on in my little world.
Not too long ago I’m pretty sure I had a massive break down which included a multitude of diffrent emotions and emotional reactions made by myself in...
February 2010
3 posts
this choice you’re making a dream unwaking a nightmare taking me down suffocating by my own hand unwilling to wake just let me sleep let me dream of a time and a place where you watch me soar where you smile again and laught as i twirl wings spread free and wide with nothing here to hide come to me and let me take your pain make it my my own, make me sain wash it away with a brutal smile and...
I finally started the second of the Kushiel books… i find it funny that i’m using a band-aid as a book mark. -=smirk=-
January 2010
3 posts
I've been a busy girl
Finished up 2 custom fall orders tonight… glad to have them out of the way so i can start coming up with something other than random color insert blond… and now i just need to veg so i stole this from ariieth
Bold the truth. You are female. You are in high school You dropped out of high school You graduated within the last 5 years You live on your own You live within 20 minutes of...
ahem...
Hello 2010! (please play nice!!!)
December 2009
5 posts
I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine. I got...
I really want to bake a cake… like something bad.
i miss being social.. i wonder if people actually miss me.
ugh
life is kicking my ass, but if it really thinks im gonna go down with out a fight… its got another thing coming.
September 2009
1 post
-=squeek=-
i’m excited….
August 2009
1 post
July 2009
7 posts
i think too much…. my brain hurts.
Where are the people that accused me? The ones who...
thought...
i miss you.
i put this on this morning, LOUDLY and got lost in...
you....
“Somehow I’ll show you
That you are my night sky
I’ve always been right behind you
Now I’ll always be right beside you
So many nights I cried myself to sleep
Now that you love me, I love myself
I never thought I would say this
I never thought there’d be You”
My favorite lines from this song… makes me tear up.
and now… i sleep.
once again...
as i sit here contemplating sleep i think that i may have done that thing that i’m really good at doing… pushing people away when i try to keep them close… it seems to be my biggest flaw. its the little monster that always pops up just when i’m starting to feel the slightest bit sated… the worry, the doubt, the panic shortly there after followed by walls going up...
June 2009
14 posts
...
someone should get on yahoo so i can talk to them… -=sticks out tounge=-
i never really liked this band, other than a few...
...
“To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether ‘tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, ‘tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish’d. To die,...
waking...
i had a dream, of being held, of holding, of kisses and sighs and giggles… feeling that closeness that i have wanted to feel for a long time and as i slowly woke up i didn’t want to open my eyes. but i smiled and reluctently got my ass out of bed… now im giddy.
i wish….
thats for you....
i find recently that i am having some of the strangest dreams… dreams about people i havent met yet and have only seen in pictures, people i’ve never met, people i know quite well but are acting out of character in my dreams. i have know idea whats going on my head when i sleep at night these days. hell i dont even know whats going on in my head when i’m not asleep. i feel...
The Dresden Dolls - Good Day
this is one of those...
“No girl should ever forget that she doesn’t need anyone who doesn’t need her.”
– Marilyn Monroe (via srsly)
randomly saw it on the popular page… thought it was a fitting mantra for me and a few others.
that tear in your hand...
today has been back and forth between mindless things on the computer and trying to sleep on the couch, tossing and turning and having bad dreams… why wont you open your eyes, see whats there in front of you… i’m tired of screaming now. i’ll wait though, eventually you’ll come around.
“I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take a breath that’s true
I...”
– Mazzy Star
a little place to rest my head...
i find myself thinking way too much lately, too in depth, too frequently. i roll things around in my head way too much wondering if what i’m doing is really best for me in all apsects of if its just some fleeting desire to stretch my wings. i know my current situation is just poison for my life, i need to be out of it, but trying to figure out where to go is an completely diffrent...